While running dat unfamiliar path.. Cheers and encouragement made my spirit went HIGH. high hopes were placed on me for tis particular opportunity. everything is placed in my decision to go for it or not. During that long journey, many thoughts wen thru my mind. "i mus achieve sth for my class", "cannot stop.."
wen hope drew near, i knew i had to, i raced myself to the end and realised i was the first. JOY OVERWHELMED ME!! i felt like expressing my joy somehow but undecisive i am. at da back of my mind i was thinking: "will ppl tink i'm proud?" or "will dey stand by my side?" some ppl give me the look that i didn't want to see. why? i'm just doing my best! everything i do, must u all look at da -ve side? wen i put my HEART to it, no1 knows or understands. i jus hab to hide my feelings like wearing a mask. sniffing my tears back in~being an emo kid.
quarrels and fights between my frens, i wana help yet i'm unable to. a confused mind~undecesive...
going up tt stage was a heart-thumping situation. but still i was filled wid anxieties. wat's da point of winning wen i get some kinda response? isn't it? WHAT IS THE POINT? did i make a wrong decision?~confused i am.
vivo city! wo lai yeh!! we took da 5.50pm show & hang around vivo for 2+hours. felicia & i siiao de. we go Giant buy already made toast bread wid butter & sugar, and puddlings!! (to eat in theatre)
while waitin for da time to past... we split up (unintentionally) to 2groups.
group1: Yuan Chan, Yuan Ling, Meiyi, Ning Zhen,
Zhao Xu, Er an, Yong Chee, Darren, Keng Yong.
group2: Felicia, Myself,
Kevin, Eng Chee.
eng chee kp asking wat to do? wat to do now..? den we like go in so many shops and joke around. soon, we saw da rest!! we go in to that shop n look, suddenly dey left again w/o tellin us. (wat is tis man? we tryin to find u all den u all jus LEAVE lik dat>>)
time to go into cinema, eng chee call da rest den dey say dey're inside le. wad??!!! ok fine..
den eng chee & kevin go cinema der say wan lover combo set, (tink da cashier tot we stead but no..! fren nia.) den fel & i point at dem say it's for dem ONLY, den da guy at da cashier giggle. finally we reach da theatre den let da show begin. we watch GHOST RIDER hiong sia. u noe wad? huh..? go watch urself. kekeke.. i'm not a movie spoiler de.
2day's outing was a caotic 1. so many misunderstanding. THEY pang seh us sia.................................. or did dey? haiz.. still confused, undecisive, troubled.. good and bad? jus can differentiate. *cough* sigh** i dun wan to move to darkness nor let it overtake me. rather be a carelss yet jovial gal /_\
what a day to add on to my mood.
a severe need for emotional support
